Will someone please take these lactation cookies off me......

I have been struggling, the last few weeks, with a distracted 6month old, who whenever is breastfeeding, would rather pull off and watch his big brother or other various things in the room. As a result my supply dropped and then James (my 6 month old) started to get cranky at the breast as of course then there wasn't enough milk.
So I got frustrated and started giving him top ups after feeds and of course my supply plummeted further and if he even saw the bottle he wanted that instead of the breast grrrrrrr.
Anyway, I had admitted defeat and was going to just let him have a bit of both, but with him starting daycare this week, I decided I really wasn't ready to stop feeding him and oh my gosh, bottles are a pain in the buttocks with all that sterilising and having one ready at all times in case we need to go out. Having boobs is just so much easier.

So hoped onto the Nappy Addicts forum and got some inpsiration from the girls on there to keep going and build my supply back up. I hit the fenugreek and blessed thistle hard, started pumping like crazy, feeding James as much as possible and if he was distracted I put him down and let him get hungry again before putting him back on (worked a treat), ordered some breastfeeding tea from Nursing Angel as well as some pump parts I needed and the girls on NA gave me the lactation cookie recipe. Oh and ordered myslef some more Mumma Rocks, these awesome necklaces that are designed so that if baby tugs on them they won't break, they keep James occupied while feeding as he can play with them till his heart is content.

So since then I have been eating these damn cookies like crazy (they are yum) and well my supply has well and truly returned, James hasn't had any formula for days and the last bottle he had was at daycare on wednesday. Woot woot, yeah, so happy to have gotten it back up and I really thought I didn't have it in me again to boost my supply, but I managed to commit myself to it and I just kept thinking "I am giving James the optimal nutrition he needs and how can I take that away and give him something sub-optimal?"

So that brings me to sitting here eating lactation cookies for breakfast (the last ones left, thank god) and tomorrow will be a new day with no cookies in the house and I can get back to eating consciously.

In the meantime I am consoling myself that at least eating these cookies is helping me feed my son, I'll just keep on believeing that for now.

So because of all that, and my NA addcition, I haven't gotten to doing anymore sewing. But am hoping as this weekend is a long weekend that I will get the last 2 covers sewn and start playig around with a new summer design as it has been so hot here in Brisbane that I am finding my little boy sweats like crazy under the cover, so am looking at making some muslin covers, but need to play with them a bit first.

That's all for now, I promise I will write more often (not that anyone reads this do they?) and I will stop eating cookies and I will do some sewing.......